The world is calling for all our beliefs to be backed up by something — science, experience, or at least by what someone else said. Why? Are we not allowed to have our own intuition, our imagination about how certain things work?

My answer is: of course we are, as long as we are not trying to forcefully impose it on to others. And I have something of my own — a cosmology, or an idea of how the Universe is functioning at the moment. It is a set of interrelated concepts that inspire me to live, to take decisions and to dream. These are the ideas that guide me in my meditation and help me get out of rabbit holes — should I fall into one of them over the course of my life.

It is all more intuitively felt, rather than understood. It is not something I would talk about to people in daily life (at least not to most of them). It is also something that is difficult to verbalise, as my Universe-structure-related concepts are often vague, only half-complete, and therefore not easy to tame by the means of language.

The only opportunity to express them is in writing. This is where I feel safe and confident enough to share my views — especially on such important matters. And this is where I can explicitly state that, once again:

I don’t necessarily claim all of this to be ‘true’. It is simply how I choose to imagine the Universe, based on what I experienced, read and conversations that I’ve had.

I invite you to treat it as both inspiration and a starting point for your own reflection — rather than something to debate over.

Energy is the raw material of the Universe

In my vision, energy constitutes everything that we see and don’t see — everything that exists. It is the fabric that constructs consciousness: both the individual consciousness of human (and possibly other) beings, as well as the collective Consciousness of the Universe (also known as God).

On the highest level, everything that exists is energy of different frequency, density, and maybe even different properties. But then there are the physical, atomic-like filters imposed on the reality — so that we can perceive the world the way we do.

These filters exist in the human mind which interprets energy as thoughts and feelings and processes them in its own habitual ways. The mind also perceives things in the world — such as flowers and mountains — through the lens of physical filters. Functioning via the means of bodies, humans have the need to understand the world on a material and solid level; so that they can relate their being to something else and find a distinction between ‘I’ and ‘it’.

My guess, though, is that this distinction is only conventional — not objective.

Consciousness is where we meet to be one

On the highest, absolute level of awareness, there is only one Consciousness. That is God, or the Creator, or simply a conscious and intentional Universe which encompasses all there is. I believe that individual consciousness of each and every human is simply a piece in this infinitely broad, Universal jigsaw puzzle.

This is the Consciousness which is aware of everything. Human path is to get as close to this absolute Consciousness as possible. The more aware I become, the more I am unified.

It can be easily observed on the level of human relationships. Because our individual minds (interchangeable with ‘consciousnesses’ here) are not really separated, but each is a part of the same Whole, we have a possibility to connect with each other through the realisation that this is so. The more I expand my ‘individual’ consciousness, the more it overlaps with that of other people.

I see this very clearly now; as my spiritual awareness develops, I can understand my friends more and more, without them explaining me certain things in detail.

I begin to understand the intentions of a lady on a bus, who took my seat when I was validating the ticket — and who doesn’t want to let me back where I was. There is a different level of understanding arising in my life, and it doesn’t come from interacting with the world on a strictly physical or audible level.

Then comes the connection with the rest of Nature — which is a part of this Universal Consciousness, too. Animals don’t appear ‘dumb’ to me anymore. I can now understand that they are alive in the same way as you and I. I can have a relationship with a cat, which I didn’t know was possible before.

Plants are still a mystery to me. But I realise that they contain the same, constant quality as any other form of life.

There is no good or bad

Finally, I am freeing myself from the burden of guilt imposed on me by Catholic upbringing. I am still not completely free yet — it is a long process — but changes are afoot.

Understanding the events of the world as bursts of energy and acts of consciousness makes it impossible to judge events, people and things as ‘good’ or ‘bad’. It also makes it impossible to judge myself by these labels. Karmic system is something that speaks to me much more, because it is based on the interrelation of cause and effect — rather than the opposition of sacrum and profanum.

I will not go to hell because of my deeds, and knowing this brings me a lot of peace. No one in this world is intentionally acting bad, no matter how ‘bad’ it may be perceived by the society. This is something I am much more confident to state than the previous passages: everyone is doing the best they can with what they have.

Every action, thought and feeling is a result of something — and it also gives a cause for something else. The causes and results are so many, that there would have to be a very complex algorithm to allow for systematising it comprehensibly for humans. This is very, very and extremely complex. But I believe that there is a system directing all of it.

What we refer to as our free will is one of the variables in the system — but is it a crucial one? In the Western tradition, we came to value free will more than anything else in a human being. But is it really — objectively — so valuable? Could we go without assuming that it is the driving force of the Universe?

I guess we could. I could, and you could. Because it is just the matter of what we are conditioned to believe. Today, I am conditioned to believe the above (at least more or less — remember to leave a safety margin for the misunderstandings caused by the faults of language).

Tomorrow — how could I possibly know what I am going to believe?