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This Is What an Attractive Woman Looks Like
Letting go of the guilt of not fitting in the stereotypical female look
The older I get, the less jewelry I put on. A few years ago, I ditched the colorful bands I used to wear on my hair. Last summer, I threw the only necklace I owned into a lake as a part of a personal ritual.
As a woman, I was never into the typical girly look. High heels were something I wore to make a joke. I also gave up on makeup around the age of 18, after I realized how incompatible it was with my proneness to crying out of both joy and nostalgia.
But as I’m approaching 30 — and gradually starting to feel my girlhood transforming into womanhood — I’m not just indifferent about those outer expressions of feminity. I purposefully avoid them. I make it a point to minimize the facade I display to the outside world through my looks. That seems to be the only way to give my inner beauty a chance.
A few years ago, it would embarrass me to talk about “my inner beauty.” But today, I firmly believe we all have it — and I’m on a quest to crystalize my own.
The less make up on my face, the easier that quest gets.
Since the beginning of November, I’ve been living with two men. This makes me hyper-aware of my feminine side — but also…
