What If…?
the most important question in my life right now
What if it was enough to breathe in nighttime air and let in some music to translate them both into written words of wisdom?
What if it was enough to do what I can do effortlessly in order to succeed? What if I would never need to work hard a day in my life but simply focus on what I like doing for long enough to see results?
What if the secret to dealing with fear was to never fight it or do things in spite of feeling afraid? What if the only “secret” we ever needed was to simply embrace the fear whenever it arises, honour it, and not force yourself to do what you are afraid of?
What if all the complications in our lives, all the hardship and despair only exist because we believe they must exist? What if we just can’t see that in order to be happy, we need to… make ourselves happy right here, right now?
What if all the goals you ever set for yourself don’t matter in the grand scheme of things, but you only learn that once you accomplish them all? What if, despite all the noble intents in our minds, we are pursuing the wrongs things, but will never be able to see that unless we succeed in our futile pursuits?
What if everything you have ever been told simply isn’t true? What if this reality you and I see every day is one big Truman Show where everybody is a protagonist — and hence, no one can ever see beyond it?
What if I told you that all those things I am saying here came to me in a recurring dream that I have every few weeks? What if you learned that in that dream, there is always an old man, sometimes resembling Buddha and other times Jesus, who patiently explains to me each time that it is the “dream” I am having that is closer to the truth than what I came to treat as reality?
What if I am lying to you about that dream and actually I never had it in my life? What if none of the words above was written by me, but all of them are copied from a sacred old book I found in a library when I went to India? What if you are dreaming right now reading this, but can’t realize it until the dream is over?
The “what ifs” that appear in your head can be useless distractions that cause you to ruminate and spin in circles. But they can also be portals to finding out more. More of truth, or more of lies. We will never know.
Realising that I can never know anything is a big part of my growth at the moment. The “what if” question helps a lot.
